Archive for March, 2010

We still have time.

We still have time

Selfreflection

Surrounded by interesting and fun company and still unable to think clearly.
Engaged in profound conversations but unable to keep your mind off that one person.
You know there’s a problem in your rationale when she’s all in your thoughts.

She seems to have put me back into the old street of no self control, she made me go from independent and criticizing to boring and singleminded.
She makes me forget the problems of the world by just smiling or talking.

I want to change this, but I don’t want the feeling to be different. I want to make this right and tell her what’s up.

She has to know what’s going on in my mind, but preferably without a disastrous ending.
People around me keep on saying that there’s a good chance for this to be a big failure, that I shouldn’t jump to conclusions and let her talk to me first. The fear of being wrong agrees with them, the love for her disagrees. I am unable to make a clear choice about whether or not it’s a good idea to go all out.

I really want to bite the bullet and tell her how I feel. But they’re probably right I’ll choke on the leftover pieces of the bullet.

I can’t just let this slide either, I don’t want to be wasting time without her.